happy birthday to me!

*NOTE: this post was posted (weehh) last friday but because of technical difficulties of blogger (i.e. failure to separate paragraphs), i reposted this post to today so that it would be pleasant to the eyes *

actually, my birthday was really last tuesday. but because of all the crap from school, i wasn't able to celebrate it last tuesday... so i betrayed my real birthday and postponed it to today because today im partially celebrating it... haha... what do i mean by partially? im celebrating it today wih my family! i'll schedule another day to celebrate it with my friends and 2B.... haha... i was supposed to have a party tonight but since this week was so cramped with crappy stuff that made me sooo busy, i had no time to plan or prepare or anything... sob... but it was actually a blessing i didn't have any party today because of the whole trillanes mutiny yesterday which might have led to no one being able to come because of strict parents... haha... like what i always say, god works in mysterious ways ^_~

right now, i can smell all of my favorite food being cooked... mmm... roast beef with my mom's super delicious buttery-gravy, lasagna, paella, and mashed potatoes... i have it every year. it's like a tradition. and of course, for dessert, my favorite vanilla ice cream and conti's chocolate overload cake and mango mania which we just bought. another tradition for me is to buy a venti peppermint mocha frap which i fulfilled last tuesday because it was the only thing i had time for. haha... i bought another today on our way to buying the cake... wee... i just simply love it... it's like 15 minsutes in heaven for me (that's how long i take before i can finish it)... the bad thing about all this food is that it's going to make me fat... haha.. i blow up so easily... why can't i have perfect metabolism like some people? prepare to see me fat on monday... hahahaha... whatever, it's just once a year...

i cant believe im 15 already... it seems only yesterday that i was 14... well actually it was 4 days ago... haha... looking at my life (yes naman) im not sure if i've done/accomplished enough for a 15 year old. i need to become a more productive member of the society.... haha... asa pa ba? well research and math simply hinders me from doing so... haha, here i go ranting again... those two walls in my life striked again yesterday... waiting for research was simply horrible... by lunch time, i felt like i wanted to jump and break a leg or something just not to go to research. it felt like a death march while i was walking from our usual tambay place in the theater upto the 2B classroom. but thank God we weren't called... we so weren't ready to present yesterday... and then math came... it turned out to be worse than research.... SHE (Cruella de Vil - the cruel devil) gave us a quiz so freaking hard i doubt i would even get more than 5 points... ugh... she must die! but like what romano said, ang masamang damo ay mahirap mamatay. why do you think is the reason why math and research haven't been murdered and decapitated yet? so much for my ranting...


well, like what i said... i'm already 15 and i still don't know what i want to be or what course i'll take... i've always wanted to be a teacher... my lolo and lola were teachers and now my sister is planing to be one... but i don't know if id be satisfied with such a simple job. i mean it's probably one of the most honorable jobs in the world but it's too simple... i want something bigger...

so next in the list is medicine. why? i've always loved science and i think studying it will interest me the most. i'm strongly considering surgery because of the medical shows i watch especially GA which influenced me a lot... i think that this generation is pretty lucky because of tv shows which showcase the careers of people... they give you a glimpse of what it is to be a (insert profession here) at a young age making it easier for everyone to decide what they want to be and at the same time gives you an idea what it takes to take that career. i don't know how i'd decide without shows that give me a glimpse of being a working person. but there are some things that are pulling me away from medicine. for one, my sister who graduated BS Biology in UP dropped out on her 1st month in med school. she claimed it was too much for her which scared me a little. my sister who is very smart was pulled away. what if it happens to me too? and of course, blood and the idea of cutting someone open still terrifies me... but the thing that horrifies me the most is that people's lives depend on how well you do your job. i mean, if you're an accountant and compute for something wrong, it won't kill anyone... but a simple mistake as a doctor could kill anyone... plus, doctors barely have time for anything aside from their patients which i observed in shows i watch... or maybe this is a wrong perception? but still, i don't know if i want to take a job which would eat up all my time and at the same time make me feel anxious... but there are rewards of course... doctors tend to be rich and it would be so fulfilling to save a life.

since there's a possibility for me too veer away from medicine, i could always take up law since i'm a debater and social studies and the law interests me a lot as well. but there's a downside to law also... although a life literally might not be at stake, but if you screw up, you kill someone as well, but figuratively of course. but that's a defense attorney im talking about... well, i could always be a corporate lawyer or a company employee or a manager, but jobs which require you to stay in an office for hours without any excitement might kill me. in short, i like a not so exciting job which would make me anxious all the time but a boring job is definitely a no-no. because of my hatred for math, i'm not considering as of the moment any math heavy course (accounting, engineering) but let's see... haha... crow's feathers might become white and i might suddenly begin liking math. haha...


i haven't realized that i was blabbing about what i would like to be for a long time now... sorry for boring you again... but for those who are like me who are not yet sure of what course or job to take, i hope it helped... haha... oh well i still have 2 1/2 years to think... but i'm getting old and i really need to start thinking.... i do hope i already have the answer when the time comes.. i don't want to end up hating my course or job... good luck to me and to everyone... haha... i shall end my blog entry for today here. because i think the gravy is finished and i want to be the first one to taste it... enjoy the long weekend! ^_^